Purple for Wednesday... say hooray!!

Hello...

See me?
yarhh.. this is me for every wednesday.. wearing purple 'baju korporat'.. i'm super duper completely purple.. from top until shoes... everything purple...
It's my feveret colour anyway...

mmm... until now.. i don't know what my position is n wat my situation is... just keep waiting n waiting until u release ur ego n search for me... hurmm...

No more assumption becz i seems dont know u anymore...

see u soon... Byee...

18 NOvember 2014... hurmmm...

Hi there!!

i want to share something here.. erm... last night, my mobile phone accidentally crashed into the floor and the screen is break. I can here the sound of mirror crack in time my phone 'bang' on the floor.. my heart hurt bcoz even just a mobile phone, i already love it as myself... hurmm.. what can i do, it's my mistake, my fate....

Life must go on...

This is me today... 

whoever that see me today would tell me that I look pale today... Maybe becoz today i'm not putting my lip tint.. Everyday my bare pale face is hidden behind my make up.. so they wont see me how weak I am, how worse I am, how sick I am... But just give them the smile...

Anyway..tat was me...

Nowadays, i just feel extremely tired and annoyed..huhu... Juz keep strong yoyoe.. you can do it.. 

Jiayou!!

That's all for today..

See u sooner or later... Tata.. 

mmm... about my life..

Hi everyone..

mmmm.. they say, only talk about your happy journey.. but how could i say so if there's nothing to talk...

I dont know what happen to my life.. it seems like it is not supported anymore... There's nothing to make it alive... some part of me have died... lost nowhere to be found...

I dont know what is happening... it seems like.. i become down.. i'm slowly trip into the deepest darkness... no enthusiasm at all.. feeling lost.. undetermined.. no courage.. falling apart... i dont know what is me now.. huh...  *sigh*..

Sometimes, i just want to give up.. give up of everything.. give up on my life.. give up on myself.. give up on anyone... The test was so big, i cant hold it on anymore... i'm feeling lonely..alone... i just give support to myself, hope.. but it doesnt long lasting.. it juz for a couple of minutes.. i tried to smile.. but it juz for a while,, there's nothing to keep me smiling.. i have nothing... i juz a small heart.. that suddenly feel the hurt, the lonely that i keep ignoring for whole my life.. the life that i ignore to keep me happy.. but the life keep hunting me.. hunting me until i fall... until part of myself die..

O Lord.. give me hope.. give me the courage.. give me the smile.. give me love.. I need You... Amen..


I hope i can keep strong...
Sorry for the sadness part of myself..
So long...

what i have in my life?? mmm...