Starting a new life.. Continue journey...

Hi everyone..

It's been a long time since my last post i think..hehe.. and here i am, blogging again since i suddenly have a thought about my blog, how my blog now..i left him for a long time.. n yes here i am for you blog..

Not much to say.. just want to say..

For this new life, let's start a new day, with new face, with new smile, and new motivation.. Not only start anew, but we continuing our life, our needing.. Bcoz every journey is continue by starting new again and again..

When we fall, we climb again n start again.. when we fail, we get up again and start again.. when we far behind, we catch up and start again.. when no one there for us, we'll be strong and start again.. when we being push, we hold on and start again.. anywhere, anytime, any decision, we start again.. becoz we have so many roads for us to start fresh again..

with Jesus, we can.. nothing impossible..

God bless everyone.. SMILEE... ^_^

Mmmm.. something that fighting with my mind...

Hi there...

   There is something that i wanna to talk about...

There is something that always lingering on my mind... I dont know how to tell coz only me know what it is, how it looks like, how it feels...

I dont really know what i want anyway.. I cant make up my mind. It feels like I dont have my own principle of life.. Just following people around, following order, without knowing what i really want...

In life, I just want to be happy.. to feel the joyful and happiness of what life will bring. But it seems that I dont have it all.. I dont have what it should be to live happily.. I always found sadness in my life. At first, I look at that things I found, it only happens to be great at first, but in the end it just something temporary to make me laugh, smile and feel in love.

What so great about love anyway if it is not sincerely there.. LOVE? only to feel happiness? but why only few people feel it. Or maybe not only LOVE that you need to have in life, but also GRATEFULNESS of what God have given us.

I dont know what I'm saying.. some thoughts of mine.. some problems of mine.. or some other things.. Anyway, this is only my question to myself.. maybe to ourselves..



Have a nice day..

GOD BLESS..

Zombie mode on...

Hi everyone...

Towards the end of semester, too much assignment comes and torturing me.. Serve me right jg la..sepa suruh procrastinate... mmm....


So..i always sleep late or not sleep at all...that's how my life goes on until the end of semester...
ohh...how tired i am.. how zombie i am getting to...

*sigh*

cannot give the zombie pic of me... no camera detected...

so long...till we meet again when i'm fresh...

BYE!!

The cold December..

Hi everyone...

do u realized december started by heavy rain instead of falling snow...??

yeah.. it makes the day feels so cold and shivering... but it also the comfy for sleeping haha.. but still, it's lecture days.. no time for rest and sleep in my comfy bed and warm blanket.. huhu..

whhyyyy... why must be this cold... oh no.. it's good, but not for me who like to stay at library for the whole day.. cold rain plus air-conditioner = cold + cold + cold... feel like frozen oredy... gosh!

butttt... still need to be thankful for the day... be grateful la.. right? yeah.. people tends to complaining during hot, complaining also during cold.. never satisfy with the weather.. hurm... people people...

Nah.. me today.. with sweater on bcoz it's cold... haha

ok... the end of today story..walaaa... 

Have a nice day boys and girls...

Byeee...!!

Purple for Wednesday... say hooray!!

Hello...

See me?
yarhh.. this is me for every wednesday.. wearing purple 'baju korporat'.. i'm super duper completely purple.. from top until shoes... everything purple...
It's my feveret colour anyway...

mmm... until now.. i don't know what my position is n wat my situation is... just keep waiting n waiting until u release ur ego n search for me... hurmm...

No more assumption becz i seems dont know u anymore...

see u soon... Byee...

18 NOvember 2014... hurmmm...

Hi there!!

i want to share something here.. erm... last night, my mobile phone accidentally crashed into the floor and the screen is break. I can here the sound of mirror crack in time my phone 'bang' on the floor.. my heart hurt bcoz even just a mobile phone, i already love it as myself... hurmm.. what can i do, it's my mistake, my fate....

Life must go on...

This is me today... 

whoever that see me today would tell me that I look pale today... Maybe becoz today i'm not putting my lip tint.. Everyday my bare pale face is hidden behind my make up.. so they wont see me how weak I am, how worse I am, how sick I am... But just give them the smile...

Anyway..tat was me...

Nowadays, i just feel extremely tired and annoyed..huhu... Juz keep strong yoyoe.. you can do it.. 

Jiayou!!

That's all for today..

See u sooner or later... Tata.. 

mmm... about my life..

Hi everyone..

mmmm.. they say, only talk about your happy journey.. but how could i say so if there's nothing to talk...

I dont know what happen to my life.. it seems like it is not supported anymore... There's nothing to make it alive... some part of me have died... lost nowhere to be found...

I dont know what is happening... it seems like.. i become down.. i'm slowly trip into the deepest darkness... no enthusiasm at all.. feeling lost.. undetermined.. no courage.. falling apart... i dont know what is me now.. huh...  *sigh*..

Sometimes, i just want to give up.. give up of everything.. give up on my life.. give up on myself.. give up on anyone... The test was so big, i cant hold it on anymore... i'm feeling lonely..alone... i just give support to myself, hope.. but it doesnt long lasting.. it juz for a couple of minutes.. i tried to smile.. but it juz for a while,, there's nothing to keep me smiling.. i have nothing... i juz a small heart.. that suddenly feel the hurt, the lonely that i keep ignoring for whole my life.. the life that i ignore to keep me happy.. but the life keep hunting me.. hunting me until i fall... until part of myself die..

O Lord.. give me hope.. give me the courage.. give me the smile.. give me love.. I need You... Amen..


I hope i can keep strong...
Sorry for the sadness part of myself..
So long...

what i have in my life?? mmm...